The continuation....

I woke up Thursday morning still feeling pretty sad about having to change my appointment yesterday. Jaden and I were playing in the toy room upstairs. Christian hadn't left to work quite yet and was playing with Jaden too. As I was picking up toys I was like...um...did I seriously just pee a bit? So I decided to go to the bathroom. It was hard to tell whether it was pee, or discharge. Then I got scared....what if I was leaking fluid. I told Christian and he suggested I call the doctor. Now let me just tell you....all you have to do is say the words "sac broke"...."leaking"....."don't know for sure"....and they have an appointment for you in no time. So, where I had to cancel because "no one was going to be there for me"....all of a sudden there was someone there! How convenient! Cooincidnce??? I think not!
Anyway, they just wanted to make sure I wasn't leaking fluid so off to the doctors I went. They checked me...I was at 4cm and about 80% effaced. She said that my sac was kinda hanging out, but she could feel that it was intact. But they decided to do a pH test anyway. POSITIVE on the test. The paper turned bright blue. So they guessed I had a small hole somewhere in it. The midwife told me that she felt like the baby was ready to come, but that I wasn't ready for him yet. I was like....are you joking? Who in their last month, is not ready for the baby to come?! She told me to go home and have a great day playing with my other boy (Jaden) one last time. Spend a lot of time with him. Then I should meditate and imagine going into labor. Having contractions, getting more intense, and holding the baby when he came out. I admit I thought it was kinda cooky, but I thought hey...why not!? I told them I had an appointment for Tuesday next week and asked if I should keep that one since I was here today? She assured me that I wouldn't make it through the weekend. Now if that's not getting your hopes up I don't know what is....I told her I didn't want to get too hopeful since we still had just under 2 weeks to go. Again she smiled and said...just let him know you are ready!
So after lunch Jaden and I spent a lot of time playing, and reading and soon it was naptime. So while he slept I decided to do that "meditation" thing. I fell asleep part way through it...so I guess it was relaxing! :)
After naptime we walked to the park in the neighborhood. I met a friend their and told her all about the experiences from the last 2 days! We laughed; our boys played. It got cold, so we went home.
I don't really remember anything more about that night. Just that my mind kept saying..."well, if my sac was hanging out then why couldn't they just break it so that labor could really start?" Maybe that's just what my mind needed to hear, cuz at 4:00 in the morning my water broke!